It's.A.Job.Not.A.Career

I'm quite demotivated on my job lately. It appears that my company is not fully utilizing my .NET skills - an area which I believe I could contribute my best. They are however, utilizing my resume for their tenders. At work, I'm now reduced into an ASP developer and sometimes, a technical secretary working on projects or leftovers from staff who have left the company.

The project that I'm working on has gone through more than 4 to 5 teams and was a pile of mess when it landed on my lap. The code was so fragile that when you touch one line, the other breaks. My recommendation for a rewrite was overruled. I have some team mates to work together on this initially but one left and the other is rather uhmmm.... in a holiday mood. So, that left me alone with this pile of poo-poo.

And if that's not enough, the documents that I produced must be in Bahasa Malaysia. English is just not acceptible by the customer. So it is taking me a lot of time reading through the Kamus Dewan (Dictionary) trying to construct my technical sentences - which I think is a complete waste of time.

I've been quite tolerant with the situation in my company for the past 6 months. My ex-boss who told me that I will have a good future in this company had opted for Voluntary Separation together with 7 other staff. The remaining - 1 applied for transfer and the rest quited. As 2005 approaches, that will mean that KahFui will also be leaving and I'll be the last one standing. KahFui's work will be on my shoulders then.

This is the coolest company ever, where I'm the only staff left. So I'm supposed to provide support for the two systems in the company which one of them I have completely no idea off and manage all the servers that occasionally have an openhouse for viruses and trojans. And of course, I still have to make sure that the poo-projects are in good-shape (or perhaps, make them smell good).

Now before you ask, how is that possible for only one staff in a company, well, my company actually under a larger entity. This larger entity was supposed to kick @$$ but so far, this larger entity is also suffering from people resigning. That's not a problem for me actually, "People come and go, company still here".

I really missed those good-old days where I'm managing projects for this company - CMM style.

Aahhhh.... What the heck? It is just a job.